bored

i'm FUCKING BORED! and no one is doing anything to make me feel better. i don't mean that in the way that i expect people to do things for me to make me un bored, i mean that in the sence that the more bored i am the grumpier i'm getting and i'm getting grumpier by the second and thats manyly my faut, however i'd ike to blame it on the people around me, ie roger
i'm pissed. i HATE my job and Rietmans is giving me the run around and that is pissing me off more than i can say. i want to get out of this house, i want to do something, if i was in wales, i'd just walk on down to teh pub with ed, or mel or someone but i can't do that here. well i could but i'd have to find my pasprt since i don't have any 'real' I.D.
everything is pissing me off, the fact everything becomes funny once i leave the room, no one answering my questions, no one listening to me (and those last two have been occuring since i got home and i'm fucking sick and tired of it, LISTEN TO ME!!!!!!) it'd be nice if people could hear my voice, i'd appreciate that.
I'm starting to miss wales and the people from it, like T, wish i got to hang out with him a bit more before i left, that would have been nice.
i feel like for the third year in a row my birthday has been pretty much ignored, not that birthdays are important, but when you feel left out most the time when rogers home, well, it just doesn't help.
i'm hateing steve right now, and i'm not worried about him reading this because he doesn't read these thing, even when i ask him to, i don't expect everyone to read these all the time. I wish i ment anything in steve's word, 'cause right now, i could be back in wales and i'm betting he wouldn't care, or notice. he doesn't tell me anything anymore and well doesn't do anything with me anymore, ys, granted i haven't tried to hang out with him.....no wait i have, he ignored me most the time on both occasions. good for him he has a girlfriend, i'm honestly happy for him, but if you could spend 5secs to say hi, i'd appreciate it
unfortunately the rest of my friends haven't seen much of me lately, thats sad, but i work 5days a week, and they do too.
Rog didn't pay much attention to me when jenna wasn't living here, and now that she is, i could be in wales and he wouldn't notice. Don't get me wrong i'm not bitter towards jenna, she's awsome, roger on the other hand.
i wish i could drive, because thats what i'd do, i'd go for a drive and do something.
you know what really pisses me off? i arranged with my dad for him to pick me up from work at 7 and well, he/they forgot and i don't think they relized they forgot, or maybe/most likely we got the messages crossed.
anyway, i'm feeling pretty much ignored and left our from/by everyone, but that sad thing is it's my fault.






i hate when i feel like this