My Shit Day

yesturday i was suppose to be in house but i was with Ed and his kids all week and wanted to end the week with them because they are awesome and i haven't laughed that much since i came here; i also wanted to see them off becasue they were leaving that day. so Eirlys said it was ok, and i said when i was done with Ed that i'd go and help out in house
so, long day. in the rain all week except one day where we didn't actaully go anywhere (go figure), I helped out with Academic stuff while waiting to go back into 'the field' for the second time that day, came back finished helping with academic stuff. On fridays we have a meeting and an academic meeting to sort out who'll do duties for the upcoming week. For the past two weeks i've REALLY wanted to get away from the center and go to the pub and Melissa and i planned to have dinner in the pub rather than eat pasta bake, again. At tea break i find out i'm doing duty on monday, YAY i can go to the pub and not eat center food YAY i got really really excited! after tea break i'm in the common room doing house stuff and Ed comes in really sheepishly 'Laura, i have a really big favor to ask'
*oh god*, 'what is it?'
'can you do duty for me this evening?'
i wanted to cry
standing there thinking about it Diego said something and Ed told him 'no she's upset' damn fuckig right i'm upset. He's had a long week and deserves teh Pub more than me, but fuck i want to go to teh pub!
so Ed and i decided to ask Dan to do it, and if he couldn't i'd do it, i would.
so i finished doing house stuff and find dan and ask if he can do duty. nope, he has to pick up Jo, fantastic. So i went to go find Ed to tell him he's now doing duty on monday, and i'm doing duty that night. I find Eve cleaning Siabord by her self (thats the class Ed was teaching in) so i help her out, Ed comes back from having a cig and says he feels really bad, i tell him not to worrie about it its fine (its not btw) so we finish cleaning the class and putting everything away when Andy comes up to me 'Laura can you do me a huge favor?'
*groan* 'yeah sure, what is it?'
'the kitchen is short this evening can you help them out'
O.owhat?! you're jokeing right is what i think
'yeah sure, no problem', is what i say
in the kitchen asking Pam when she wants me in to help out, Eirlys comes up to me 'Laura? can you do me a foavor?'
'uh huh' *sniffle*
'can you take the finished laundry to the dry room at about 6 there should be another load done if you could take the to the drying room too?'
'sure'
its now 5:30pm, i'm not need untill 6in teh kitchen, so i go back to my room and cry.
Kitchen was easy, there was only a small group in so everythign was done by 7:00 but theres a slight problem. there was group that was suppose to be arriving at 6 but now they wont be showing up untill 8 and still want dinner *duble fuck*
like i said, at 7 we finished doing the first set of dinner dishes melissa showed up and said she was going into Betws to get food, i asked her to pick me up something but Pam and Mik told me to go and because i was 'shooed' out of the kitchen i went with her.
the whole night i was venting to people like Eve, and Pam about all that stuff, not complaining to get something in return but just to get it off my chest and be fine with it later.
walking down to Betws Melissa basically made me admit that it wasn't fine and i minded a whole hell of a lot when i kept saying it was fine ane that i didn't mind and both Melisas and Pam offered to take the duty, but then i wouldn't feel any better, i would feel guilty, and not have a good time at the pub if they were stuck doing duty and Melissa wasn't going to go to the pub anymore, i told her if she didn't go i'd be upset
Jokeing with Ed i told him he owed me a big favor and askedif he could bring me back a cheese burger from the fish and chips take out place and jokeingly i said 'and chocolate and....i'll just make you a list', and he told me to actaully make him one, really nice offer, but i wasn't about to take him up on it. so when melissa and i got down to Betws i got a cheese burger and chips for dinner went to the Spar and picked up lots of junk food to make me feel better and then arrived a the center half hour late for duty
no one seemed to mind
after that my duty shift went really well, the kids were really well behaved and started to go to bed before i even told them it was time. watched a cuple movies and started to go to bed around 1:30ish and i find lights that i had previously turnned off, on. Melissa is in the library fairly tipsy and talking to people on the net. she said they ALL got tipsy/drunk and had a really fun time. thats awesome that they all had a really fun time, but the problem is hwo soon will any of them want to go down to the pub again? how much longer do i have to wait before i can get out of the center for an evening?






lifes a bitch and then you die