Everybody Hurts

Everybody hurts by REM is the worst song to listen to when you are thinking about home and that ceratain someone who isn't talking to you.
Is REM America's answer to the Tragically Hip, or is the Tragically Hip Canadas answer to REM?
so it fianlly rained again, we went almost a week, well not quite, 3 days with out rain and on the forth day it rained.
god i'm listening to the worst music ever for missing friends and a certain someone. i'd love to write this person but i don't have their mailing address and i know my e-mails are getting to them but i don't know if they are reading them. they are making my stay much harder than it needs to be. if they would just say hello, or tell me why they are upset with me so i could try to or not to fix it. i could appologize. i want to fly home smack this person up side the head ask whats wrong, give them a hug and then play halo and try to kill them but all in good fun.
so today is exactly a month since i arrived at Rhyd-y-Creuau, Betws-y-Coed, North Wales. if i want it down to the time i have to wait untill later this evening.
Pam and I are going to hae a candy and movie night while i'm on duty. sorry Al. so right now we're trying to figure out how to get down to Llanrwst, everyone is either to sick to move, already left, on holidays or can't drive, that last one would be Pam and I. so we're trying to see about the bus or train, or maybe if Jon isn't feeling to gross maybe he coud drive us. we might go to teh pool before we get the food adn movies. it'd prolly be a good idea to exercise a little before i go t sit down and be gross by eating junk and watching movies but right now, i don't wanna. I'm eating way to much jun, when i get home i'll be 100billion lbs, but it'll be ok, i'll still be cute but no longer hot cute, just pilsbury doughboy cute......did i say hot cute? ew, who ever thinks i'm hot needs to have their eyes checked. yes i'm cute, because i do stupid/cute things and say stupid/cute things and i guess i have a not overly repulsive look to me, but hot??? i don't think so. i think you'd agree.
as soon as Jermane gets a good look at me he'll wonder what he was thinking and never talk to me again...not that he has in the first place really.
well the not raining think didn't last long, its already stopped.
I had to do MET (record temps and weather stuff) and i went to the loft to get the sheet to record it down and there was a swarm of big black flies. not a one or two but a SWARM! like the Mummy when he vomis those flies, well, not that many, but thats what it reminded me of. they were all by the window (the only sorce of light) and i tried to open it but i could figure it out adn the more i tried it seemed like there was more flies. do flies have nests like bees? or were they bees desgised as big black flies? do buble bees live in hives or by them selves?? bees are a circular thing, they make bees to collect pollen to make honey to feed bees so they can go and get more pollen for honey for more baby bees. i wonder if the queen bee names them all and love them all the same, with that many kids you'd have a favorite here and there, maybe the nameing of the babies is teh Drones job. wht is his job? is it just fucking the queen so she'll lay eggs? a lay for a lay, sweet job. well all those bees being sisters you'd think there would be more bickering. or maybe thats why they are so made when you ruin their home, well besides the ruining theur home. the bottle all their emotions so that they can concintrate on getting/making honey adn then when something desrubes this all teh emotions are let loose like lightning in a bottle. i wounder whats the deal with killer bees? PMS?? cramps?
i want new shoes, i'm not a big fan of my superman shoes anymore. they are huge adn ugly, but i still like them just not on me, and my Von Dutch are falling apart, teh laces or getting worn down and the rubber is all cracked the canvis near my big toe on my left foot is torn adn makinga hole. i tried to patch it before i left but it was to think for a regular needle and a shoe is an akward shape to try to sew it up on the machine.
ok i think i've gone on long enough with me randim or random thoughs, especailly becasue i can't think of anything else. my spelling is really going down hill, thars just a little worrying













its a bitter sweet symphony