why, why WHY!

i am depressed, and i don't know why. I have a few ideas as to why i might be depressed but the reasons are just silly.
I'm tired of feeling a certain way towards a certian someone, i wish i didn't have these feelings at all. they go off and then hit me again *bam* like a punch in the stomach. i go bright red when he walks up to me in the halls. god help me, and i don't want to feel this way anymore!
I'm tired of getting home around 9:00 and later and freaking out over how much homework i have to do and realize i have hardly any when i finish it all in an hour. I'm tired of forgeting homeowkr at school, and i'm tired of handing stuff in late. i'm tired of high school but i don't want it to end.
I want time to myself, and i want people to understand i don't want to go over to their house when ever they ask me. They asked you if you can come over, shouldn't you be aloud to say no, for no reason, with out them getting mad at you?
I want a decent night sleep, i don't want to hear my dad snor, i want to do my homrwork and get it in on time. I want to be recognized, i want to be loved, i want inner peace.

i need ice cream